Thursday, April 30, 2009

Brand new one

I am supposed to blog about this 1 week plus ago but i am simply too lazy. ^^
Anyway...yay!!!
I am no longer a P licence driver!muahahaha..
On 17th of April , i went to JPJ myself to renew aka upgrade my licence.
I paid RM60 for 2 years duration of my licence.

here's my P licence.buhbyee~~


Actually there is an advantage of having a P sticker sticks on your car because others can't blame you for driving slow or recklessly.haha.
So now i don't have any excuses anymore.need to drive carefully already.but anyway I reckon myself as a good driver. :p
Don't u think so?haha.

here's my new one ^^

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Stars***

....When love is lost, do not bow your head into sadness.Instead, keep your head up high and gaze at the stars for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

another day has gone and i'm still all alone....

today two of my friends purposely came to my house and bring me to go out...
it was 1.30 pm and i was still sleeping but they disturbed me!!!grrrrr....!!
at first i was quite angry.i don't like people to disturb me when i was sleeping!!!
i have to wake up and bathed and they bring me to mcd as i haven't eat yet then went to starbucks to online~~~
i wonder what is so nice about starbucks.i don't drink coffee.it makes me headache.hence i orded 1 ice blended raspberry blackcurrant i think.not bad actually.
then i online there and shu ying busy with her viwawa's game and chun kit seeing the both of us online..my whole day is just busy online. =_='''
at least when i'm out from my room, i won't think nonsense again.sigh.....

i met suhian and victoren at mcd and starbucks too.i was really happy to see the both of them. =)
miss lepaking with them.they were really nice guys.gentleman i should say.
when we wanna go back home, something funny and embarassing happened.
the starbucks supervisor, a chinese guy who is vic's friend, he asked rong shyn(1 of the workers there) to give me a hot chocolate drink for free.i was like...phew....damn malu...i didn't even say thanks to him.kinda rude la but if i have the chance next time, i'll for sure thank him for the hot chocolate.
but anyway i'm happy that i get a free hot chocolate which costs around rm11.50 and it shows that i still have some attractions.i know i am damn perasan but who don't?
thanks mr.starbucks. =)

i really wanna say thanks to those who keeps consoling me.u know who u are..
thanks to some friends who keep on ask me to go out but i'm sorry if i always rejected u guys because i need some time to be alone.really thanks to those who cared about me... =)

Monday, April 13, 2009

pointless

.silly.
.stupid.
.crazy.
.tired.
.lifeless.
.foodless.
.sleepless.
.soundless.
.meaningless.
.speechless.
.communicateless.
.look=drugaddict.

sorry for the ignorance around me.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

from the bottom of my broken hearted

i thought i'll be ok yesterday after much laughter in me..
but i am not.
depressed and miserable again.
it is painful.unbearable.
only those who go through this will understand.
everything felt like a knife.
my weakness says that i care too much.
my scars remind me that everything is real..too real indeed...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

ugly

i am sorry bloggy.
i am blogging all the sad things.
that is how i feel now..
no more beautiful postings..
not for this moment.
i believe i'll blog something happy and interesting one fine day.
right?
Broken lyrics

In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You're invincible
Yeah, It's true
It's in your eyes
Where I find peace

Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away.

So here we are now
In a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other
Together we'll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?

And time
Is all I ask for
Time
I just need one more day
And time
You've been crying too long
Time
And your tears wrote this song
Stay

In the moonlight
Your face it glows

Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away.


It's Not Over lyrics


My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed. And there is no sense
In playing games, when you done all you can do.

But now it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.

I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry, I cry. I'm
Shaking from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away
The life that I led. But I won't let it die. But I won't let it die.

But it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back.

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever. You're breaking
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever. You're breaking
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

It's not over. It's not over, it's never over, unless you let it take you, it's not over,
It's not over, it's not over, unless you it break you. It's not over.


Why lyrics


The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

Monday, April 6, 2009

hurt & hurt

i'm tired.headache.with a blank mind.not knowing what to do.deeply hurt inside me.a thorn in me.like a knife stabbing into my heart.no heart beats.should i or shouldn't i?i'm trying real hard not to shake.
can someone please take the pain away from me?
i feel suffer.now...

Sunday, April 5, 2009

!@#$%^&*!@#$%*

i am f.u.c.king fan!!
i wanna play space shot now.i wanna play roller coaster!
i wanna do a bungee jump!!!!!!!!

!@#$%^&*()__)(*%$#@#$%^&*()(*&^%$

Saturday, April 4, 2009

crap ==

sometimes it is quite scary driving around lake garden alone at night.freaking dark when the lamp post is spoil.that is why it is the best place for couple to ahemmm......hehe. :p

took this while i was driving :p

Cheng Beng ---> family gathering

Last saturday i went for cheng beng with my family to pray for my grandpa(i never see him before! ) and grandma.
actually to be honest, i don't know what cheng beng is all about.
i just know every year we'll go to the grave sites to pray for them and offer some foods, tea, wine..?, paper accessories as in those paper shoes, money, shirts, etc,...
i think it is a day to remember and honor one's ancestor at grave sites but i think it is more to family reunion with the ancestors, don't u think so?
every family will gather at the grave site and pray together, clean up the surroundings and after the worship(??) they will start eating the food they brought for the worship.

my uncle preparing to put the firecrackers

Luckily i went for cheng beng because this year only me and another 3 cousins went.i think my grandma and grandpa must be disappointed.imagine.my grandma has 7 sons and 4 daughters....i have so many cousins but only 4 of us attended for the cheng beng.i remembered last few years ago, many of them went until there were no place for us to stand but this year....sigh...not my familys' tradition anymore.i felt so guilty that morning because i actually have the thought of not going also. =(
oh ya.we even put firecrackers for twice!hehe. ;)



Anyway i do agree that our original cultures and traditions are significant in our life but it is fading away each year.every occasions has its own meaning.as for me, i think cheng beng is really a right time for a family gathering.don't u think so???