Start of something new

thanks mummy...
thanks sis..
i'm sorry for not telling u my problems.
when u said u feel sad because i rather tell my problems to others but not u who are my family my heart feel pain and touched at the same time..
i just don't want the 2 of u to worry about me and i don't know how to tell u all my problems.
i'm sorry for making u disappointed..
starting from now on, i'll share it with u..
i never thought u all will be so worried about me.i'm sorry..

i'll be strong..i'll be independent..i'll be tough..
i'll study and don't want to be lazy anymore.
my dearest future is awaiting for me..
i don't want to care so much anymore.
i'll just concentrate and go through this 9 months time no matter how hard it is..
i will..i will do it..
papa,mama,jie jie,..i know u all will support me and be there for me no matter what..
darling..please don't leave me alone when i needed u the most and i know sometimes i've disturbed u alot..i don't mean it.i'm sorry..i think too much..please give me some encouragement when i need it..
friends..thanks for all those who keep encourage me and support me..thanks alot..

i wanted to throw away all my sin..
i wanted to be a good person..
from now onwards, i'll try my best to be an optimistic person.
no more negative thoughts..
if i do that again please scold me or advise me..
stpm..here i come...

-chiew bee-