why the word sadness keep appearing in my mind no matter where i am or what am i doing???
why?????i really fed up already...i hate LDL!!!long-distance love..it is so suffering..i hate it!!
i'm not like you..not like anyone else..who can be patient and can be so strong and tough.i'm not..
When i need you, you're not here with me.i got to hug the bear that u gave me or my pillow and yet i have a boyfriend.why??why can't i get to hug you??i know i'm childish.but i scared history will repeat again do you know?i'm really scared.i don't wanna think so much, but i can't make it.
alright.i not really got think about it already.but it seems like i don't know what u're doing and this makes me feel i'm like very faraway from you.i hate this feeling.we got sms each other everyday and sometimes talk on the phone and everyday u got tell me what you doing..but still there is something which is missing do you know?i can't be there for you when you're sad or tired or happy..i'm not the one..we still have such a long journey to go.i don't know how long can i stand or how long you can stand.faith faith faith..do you still have faith in it?i really hope we could make it..i hope u meant it when u said u miss me alot..i really do dr.bahagia..

me = emotionless

i'm speechless now.i don't know what i'm feeling right now..sad,happy or moody?
i'm totally lost.i don't know what am i thinking.i know.i'm not happy.but why?
this afternoon i drove all the way to tesco.i felt so weird and crazy.don't know what is happening to me.i went there alone.bought all the food.i never do this before.walking there alone.buy this and that.i'm wasting my money buying all those useless stuff and food.fattening!!what happen to me?i'm tired of everything.i want myself to be free.if i have a chance, i would pack my bag and go for a vacation and be away from home and friends and travel alone enjoying myself and not thinking anything!!where is the happy chiew bee?where are u??i don't know where am i belong to..i don't know why am i here..and i miss him..i really wanna be free from everything..

i miss you

i'm missing you right now..i'm missing your everything..i so wanna hug u tightly and feel your warmness.i thought we can spend more time together this week.i'm sad.every night before i sleep i would see our pictures and wish u're here with me.how long more i could stand this?sigh.i need you.u teach me how to be true to myself.u organise my disorganised life..u're the first person who said i'm ego and tats how i realised tat i'm an ego person..u managed 2 manipulate my feelings by making me sad, angry, happy, excited, jealous,etc..u give me useful advices but sometimes i don't know how 2 appreciate it.all the moments that we've shared make me smile when i think about it..i'll be really down when i miss u.but life goes on..i still have 2 make myself happy and act as if i'm not sad.i miss u dr.bahagia..

how to touch a girl..

JOJO LYRICS

How To Touch A Girl

Mmm

I think I could like you

I already do

Feelings can grow bu

tThey can go away too

You're takin my hand

Lookin into my eyes

Don't be in a rush to

Get me tonight

Feel somethin happenin

Could this be a spark?

To satisfy me baby

Gotta satisfy my heart

Do you know how to touch a girl?

If you want me so much

First I have to know

Are you thoughtful and kind?

Do you care what's on my mind?

Or am I just for show?

You'll go far in this world

If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you

But I keep holding back

Cause I can't seem to tell

If you're fiction or fact

Show me you can laugh

Show me you can cry

Show me who you really are

Deep down inside

Do you feel somethin happenin?

Could this be for real?

I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal

Do you know how to touch a girl?

If you want me so much

First I have to know

Are you thoughtful and kind?

Do you care what's on my mind?

Or am I just for show?

You'll go far in this world

If you know how to touch a girl

Bring me some flowers

Conversation for hours

To see if we really connect

And baby if we do

Ooh

I'll be givin all my love to you

Ohh

Do you know how to touch a girl?

If you want me so much

First I have to know

Are you thoughtful and kind?

Do you care what's on my mind?

Or am I just for show?

You'll go far in this world

If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl? (Yeah, yeah)Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

You'll go far in this world

If you know how to touch a girl

Ps : a few tips for guys...~~~

:p

L.O.V.E is in the air

Can anyone tell me what is the definition of LOVE?What i mean here is the love between a couple.a boy and a girl.perhaps a boy and a boy or a girl and a girl.If u love someone, does it mean u must be with him/her 24/7?Love someone means u'll be with him/her forever?Maybe the answer is a yes during our great grandpa's time.but for now i don't think so.all the girls want their boyfriends to give them freedom and vice versa.the word forever only exist in fairytale nowadays.promises won't last.maybe u won't agree with me..=)

shape of a heart..<3

Sometimes those who already involved in a relationship prefer to be single..well what makes them to have this kind of thought?Maybe the word love is too complicated for them and they don't understand it..or maybe too tired of arguments?Or they just don't know the right way to love their partners?After much strugglings in ones relationship, i'm sure one of them would be sick of it.it depends how long they could stand it unless they really love each other and that they willing to take this as a challenge along their journey..i'm confused sometimes what love really mean to me..i admit that i'm jealous of other couples when i see how lovely and close they are..girls have strong jealousy..

when everything goes wrong..

Everything goes smoothly and everyday says 'I love u' to each other when a couple first started their relationship.all the sweet words and promises..and after a few months or years things gonna change.start to yell at each other.complain and nag here and there.well well this is normal but not too much ok..all this happen because guys and girls have totally a different ways of thinking and their perceptions toward some things are different as well.a small matter means nothing to a guy, but for a girl is like wow..we can't totally put a blame on guys because girls sometimes are way too sensitive and have strong jealousy.maybe i'm like that sometimes.^^ Girls just wanna feel secure with their position and to know what guys are actually thinking..guys used to neglect some minor things which will lead to misunderstandings.the most important thing is they must believe in each other and have faith in their relationship.though u're willing to give green light to your partner to do everything that he likes[freedom], guys..no matter what..everything has its limit.girl needs a trustworthy guy..

I'm jealous of those old lovely couples..their bond are so strong and still so close to each other..still hold hands and kiss each other.how happy they are..i can feel their happiness.kebahagiaan.they found the right one for each other.they belong to each other.. half of her heart+half of his heart = LOVE.how perfect!! =)

sick sick sick!!!

argh!!!i hate to be sicked!!i'm sick now!!i hate this kind of feeling.makes me dizzy and headache and i feel like vomiting!!i hate to vomit~~!!why suddenly i can fall sick?maybe i not enough sleep this few days or i got it from him.argh!!!every night can't sleep well.after switch off the light, then my eyes are wide open..am i having insomnia?very suffering.then end up wake up at 12 or 1 pm.i hate this!!it makes me so abnormal!!i don't wanna be a nocturnal!i wanna have a nice sleep!!!anyone can help me???

lake garden

i'm in love with lake garden..a place where you can find serenity and the view is picturesque enough.perfect for a morning or evening walk and even a perfect place for a boy to confess his love to his girl.haha.don't know why but i just love to go there.sitting beside the lake makes me feel happy and..the feeling is just indescribable..especially when you lie down on the grass.[tried it before but only for a while :p] you'll have a peace of mind when you look up into the blue cloudy sky and i wish i'm flying up there.if you haven't try it before too bad then..go try it!!!anyway a few weeks ago me and sushan went to lake garden because our pa tuition teacher is teaching the same thing that we've learnt.we've got no where else to go and we can only think of lake garden.so i drove all the way to lake garden and we sat on the green-ish grass.hehe.

me & sushan

We talked there for quite long.we didn't realised that we'll talk so much there.it is definitely a place where friends can share their feelings and thoughts.Also, it is a perfect place for couple to..urm..you know..I'm proud that i'm from taiping actually though we don't have a cinema or a REAL shopping mall here.at least we have lake garden, zoo, maxwell hill, etc..Taiping means peace in chinese. [ tai pin ] Judy's KL friends thought taiping is a town where all the old people live and around the town has lots of cow.haha.come on.taiping is so famous and traffic congestions won't happen here.how nice!!

nice view of the lake garden

can you see the swan?boat riding in lake garden.nice!

we're on the boat =)

At last, we decided to sit the little swan.hehe.it has been so long since i play it..not to say very long.maybe 4 or 5 months ago..last time the boat is not so nice.this is newer and nicer!goshh..i'm in love with lake garden!!!i can just sit there for a few hours doing nothing and stare at the sky and the surroundings..at night, i love to go to the playground.hehe.though it is dangerous [there is where i lost my hp :D]. i'll play the swing, sit on top of the slide and eat and talk there.how i wish i am there with my love ones.but i know he won't bring me there.nevermind.for the sake of our safety. =)

playground! =)

haha.i actually like this picture.because of the green grass :p

=)

Can you see the word happiness written all over our face when we're in lake garden?It will just make you smile when you're there..don't need to spend money to buy that kind of atmosphere..save money!!!Love u lake garden!!!i'll come to you when i'm sad! :p