Thursday, June 25, 2009
bee the risk taker ^^
Seems like the risk that I was taking doesn't pay off.haha.
On the 19th of June at 12p.m., we actually can check our future university through sms or online.
I have to check it through sms as I was working at the MPH Bookfair.
When chunkit got to know that he get UMK which is universiti malaysia KELANTAN, I sensed something was wrong.I'm scared and nervous.I can't concentrate the whole morning.
Many questions run through my mind.
WHat if I didn't get any U?What if I didn't get what I want?How to tell my mum?etc etc...
I sent a few times to 15888..and........when I get the message..........UMK....are u kidding me?
HAHAHAHA.my hand was shaking hard and I started to cry.at MCD.wkit checked for me and I get Keusahawanan Kesihatan....??I've got no idea what hell course is that.
Disappointment, sadness, upset, anger, hurt, feeling lost,...all these fills up within me.
Struggling hard in form 6 and this is the outcome that I get.
Seriously damn fed up and pissed off.
Once u decided to study form 6, obviously u don't have the right to decide your future anymore because it all depends on luck and what course u get from the government.
Seems like not much students get the course that they want.some didnt even get any university though their results are ok.
Everything seems to be so funny and ridiculous. ^^
So.....
Did I make the wrong or the right choice for rejecting usm?
Is it worth for me to take the risk?
Honestly speaking..I didn't feel regret for rejecting usm.
But I do feel regret for applying usm.
I wonder what would I get if I didn't apply usm..hmm...
Anyway past is the past.
Though my mum and sis kept on blame me for rejecting usm(as what I expected), but they're all okie now.sis even sent me one very touching long message.thanks sis!
Thanks for respecting my decision and being so supportive! =)))
I took two risk within these few months.
Both the risk gave me great disappointment.
I don't think I am a good risk taker.haha.
But it'll make me a stronger person.
I know...this is not the end of everything.
It is just the beginning! =)
Ps: To all my dear friends, most of u are leaving already.everyone is going separate ways.don't know when we'll meet again.all the best!Sorry for whatever I've done and thanks for everything! I'll miss all of u!!!do take care kawan-kawan sekalian! *huggies* love love love <3 !!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
fats = enemy = fats
I'm being self-conscious and paranoid again.
I mengembang a lot.a hell lot.
My mum keeps reminding me that I'm a lot fatter than last time.
She seems to be the one who worried about this more than I do.
At one point, she even asked "Don't u scared or worried that u are growing fatter and fatter?Your face is so big now.NOT nice".
Then I answered her, "I thought u prefer my face to be chubbier?U said like that makes me prettier ma.Ok la ok la..I eat lesser la.Skip dinner.hehe."
Mum replied, "This time is too chubby.Fat already makes u look shorter.U don't need to skip dinner la.U can't make it.Go for jogging or hiking.Do some exercise...." =_=''''''
It is quite annoying when she nags about everything I eat everyday!
...and she compared my body with my sis's.... =_='''
Hopefully I can be thinner. =_=''''
Who wants fats?I'll donate for u!!!For fREEeeeEeeee~~!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
bad hair day~~!!!!
the return of ju on@.@
seeeee....#$%^&*%$#
gotta wear a cap!!
YES.
CALL ME A PARANOID!!
Friday, June 5, 2009
Redang trip
this is what we do when we can't sleep
this 2 fellas cold til cover themselves with their towel :p
We reached the jetty at around 7.30a.m..at last!!phewww~~That was where we meet up with vj they all. =)
Everything was kinda messed up before we took a boat to our resort.
Anyway things went smoothly after that. :)
doing some bollywood dance..tumpah seh air~~
Oh yea..the boat was so bumpy when it hits the wave.
It was kinda scary and it turned out to be fun!!!hehe.
Finally at around 10.30a.m.. we reached our Redang Reef Resort~~
the boat that we sit
;)
Tell u what..I can't believe in my own eyes when I saw the beach.crystal clear blue water really existed in Malaysia.hehe.It was amazing and NICE!!
laguna resort~~
the bridge from redang reef resort to laguna resort
upstairs belong to us :p
our room
U can really see the rocks and the fishes without have the needs to wear your own spectacles to have a clearer view.and the blue cloudy sky is so matching with the colour of the sea! ^^
I feel like jumping into it! (I know.I'm scared! )
We then have our lunch at 12p.m. before our first snokerling session at 2.30p.m..
Actually, I am not satisfied with the food provided but nevermind.hehe.
Some of us practised on how to breathe with our mouth when we are wearing the mask with the breathing pipe.hehe.
I know it sounds stupid but hey it was quite tough okiee..haha.
At first I was kinda worried about the snorkeling session.I can't swim.I don't know how to float on the water either.HAHA.
I know we're not gonna drown because we are wearing the life jacket.it keeps us floating but as usual, I'm scared when my feet can't reach anything.
I kept on laughing and laughing when I was practising.HAHAHA.
Luckily hueywen was beside me all the time.LOL.tq tq! :p
Then off we went to Marine Park for our first snorkeling.
No pictures taken there. :(
It was fun!!heeeheee.. ^^
A lot of colourful fishes swimming around us.I saw Nemo too!!
This was my first time swimming(should be floating) around with fishes! =)))
It was amazing.truly amazing.
U can feel the calmness when u saw the fishes swimming around u.its like u're entering another world.how nice!!
The 1 hour session passed very fast indeed.
It was quite tiring though.hehe.
...and here begins our photo sessions~~ =)
me & hueywen ;)
fuhyuen.ck.vj.me.hwen
woohooo~~
taken by mr.ck
@.@
Well..at night after our dinner, we went for a stroll along the redang beach.
It is so happening there.
Laguna resort is so 5 star-ishh...!so nice!!how I wish I could stay there!! :(
ANyway we were actually looking for the More More Tea Inn but to our much frustatation, we couldn't find it.so disappointed!
But as we were walking back to our resort, we found it!!thanks to ckit.HAHAHA.
It is so near to our resort but we didn't even realised it.
Come all the way to redang, of course must take some pictures with the more more tea signboard and the love shape flowers!! :p =)))
poker face :)))
yay!!at last! ;)
so thats all for the 1st day in redang.hehe.
Wait for my second post on redang! :p :p
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
2.47a.m.
i told myself to sleep earlier tonight.
my eye bag and panda eyes is getting worse day by day.
rs pun kata begitu.
but i am busy doing some nonsense things until now.again. =_=''
I NEED SOMEONE TO FORCE ME TO SLEEP EARLIER!sighh
selamat malam manusia~~
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
small girl
i love eating theseeee <3
I bought these when I went tesco with mum.
She thought I wanted to buy those biscuits and lolipops for my niece.HAHA.my niece always steal my lolipops!!
It is all for myself! =) =)
my tam chiakness.......*speechless*shakes head*sigh*