bee the risk taker ^^

I actually should blog about this 1 week ago but don't have the mood to do so.
Seems like the risk that I was taking doesn't pay off.haha.

On the 19th of June at 12p.m., we actually can check our future university through sms or online.
I have to check it through sms as I was working at the MPH Bookfair.
When chunkit got to know that he get UMK which is universiti malaysia KELANTAN, I sensed something was wrong.I'm scared and nervous.I can't concentrate the whole morning.
Many questions run through my mind.
WHat if I didn't get any U?What if I didn't get what I want?How to tell my mum?etc etc...

I sent a few times to 15888..and........when I get the message..........UMK....are u kidding me?
HAHAHAHA.my hand was shaking hard and I started to cry.at MCD.wkit checked for me and I get Keusahawanan Kesihatan....??I've got no idea what hell course is that.

Disappointment, sadness, upset, anger, hurt, feeling lost,...all these fills up within me.
Struggling hard in form 6 and this is the outcome that I get.
Seriously damn fed up and pissed off.
Once u decided to study form 6, obviously u don't have the right to decide your future anymore because it all depends on luck and what course u get from the government.
Seems like not much students get the course that they want.some didnt even get any university though their results are ok.
Everything seems to be so funny and ridiculous. ^^

So.....
Did I make the wrong or the right choice for rejecting usm?
Is it worth for me to take the risk?
Honestly speaking..I didn't feel regret for rejecting usm.
But I do feel regret for applying usm.
I wonder what would I get if I didn't apply usm..hmm...

Anyway past is the past.
Though my mum and sis kept on blame me for rejecting usm(as what I expected), but they're all okie now.sis even sent me one very touching long message.thanks sis!
Thanks for respecting my decision and being so supportive! =)))

I took two risk within these few months.
Both the risk gave me great disappointment.
I don't think I am a good risk taker.haha.
But it'll make me a stronger person.
I know...this is not the end of everything.
It is just the beginning! =)

Ps: To all my dear friends, most of u are leaving already.everyone is going separate ways.don't know when we'll meet again.all the best!Sorry for whatever I've done and thanks for everything! I'll miss all of u!!!do take care kawan-kawan sekalian! *huggies* love love love <3 !!